HeartFront...

When I got up in the morning today, little did I know that I would feely gloomy like the weather outside. I was to attend a wedding in the morning, the wedding of a friend from college.

This friend was special. She was my first crush. In spite of my denial that I did not like her one bit, my mind could not think of anything but her during that time. She had the most beautiful smile and was forever bubbly. I would be pushed into a hypnotic spell every time I was around her.

That one year we were together in college, I never had the courage to tell her that she made my heart skip a beat every time I saw her. I let her fade away into the oblivion of my heart.

Not that I wanted something to work between us, I met her years later wanting to tell her that she had a very special place in my heart as she was my first crush. But thanks to the spell she used to cast with her voice and her small antics I could not gather myself to tell her, what she meant to me.

Today when she was standing with her better half on the platform performing her part of the rituals, I felt really happy for her. Because she is betrothed and now married to a really nice guy.

Presently listening to “Lonely” by Akon, I am thinking of all the people whom I let go. I hope I would find my self a companion who would make me feel like the way she used to make me feel.